“My eyes are worn out from weeping; my stomach is churning, my insides are poured on the ground…” Lamentations 2:11
Today is the day. The day that marks two years since I lost my sister Debbie. The day that was supposed to be a weekend of joy with a surprised baby shower for Madelyn but instead a funeral with tears, heartache and questions. Today is the day I think of what it should’ve been and wonder why you left us so young? Today is the day our lives changed forever.
A lot of us have these days. The day of questions, uncertainty and sorrow. The day of when we lost someone we loved, the day of our unborn child’s birthday…. It hurts extra these days.
I know that God is sovereign, but I still don’t understand why we have to go through such tragedies. I remember listening to “It is Well” by Bethel Music - it was sung by two of our dear friends at Debbie’s funeral. I am not going to lie it was a hard song to hear. I couldn’t even sing it. It was not well with my soul! I was upset, hurt and angry. I didn’t understand…It was supposed to be a fun weekend! We were all supposed to be together celebrating Maddie. It wasn’t supposed to be like this! For many months it was hard for me to hear this song.
In September of 2015 a dear friend of mine left this world unexpectedly. I was asked to sing “It is Well” by Bethel Music at her funeral. It brought back a lot of the same questions and emotions from Debbie’s death. I remember listening to the song one day in my bedroom. The kids were napping and I was asking God why? How can this be well with my soul? I began to weep in my bedroom as I listened to the bridge.
Through it all. Through it all my eyes are on you. Through it all. Through it all. It is well. Through it all. Through it all my eyes are on you. And it is well with me.”
I don’t think that God necessarily says what has happened is good and I don’t think He even expects us to understand why. Honestly, I really don’t think I will ever know why. He calls us to fix our eyes on Him through all circumstances. He never said this journey of life would be easy but He told me He would never leave me, nor forsake me. He promised me that I would never be alone on this journey and that He would be with me THROUGH IT ALL. It is well with my soul because of Him and when we fix our eyes on Him, He lets us know it is well. Doesn’t mean we have to understand or we don’t have days that we weep with sorrow. To me it means we have a Savior that holds us closely and gives us hope for tomorrow. He helps me focus on the beautiful life Debbie lived. The many hearts she continues to touch with her story and her legacy she left us through her daughter, and so much more. Some days are harder then others but that is why I can now sing, “Even so, It is well.”
We love you so very much and think of you everyday. You will always have a very special place in our family’s heart. Thank you for loving me and for always making me feel like I was your “real” sister. Your hugs were tight with love and your smile was contagious. Your words were bold and true and you showed true bravery and courage. You loved Jesus with your whole heart and you invested in your daughter’s life even when it was extremely hard at times. You were a true example of someone who wasn’t going let their past take their future! I love you forever! I am so proud of the women and life you lived!
Love your Sister,
As I look at my two beautiful kiddos sitting on the couch watching Mickey I am full of joy. I am overwhelmed with so much gratitude and in awe of what God has entrusted me with. I am one luck mommy.
Never did I imagine life with kids would be like this. I never imagine that in one given day I would be a boo boo fixer, housekeeper, referee, cook, teacher and the job description goes on and on. Every day is unpredictable with a new adventure or a new story to tell.
I always thought that as a mommy I would teach them but in more ways they teach and show me more about myself. They teach me to love and to be kind. To be slow to anger and quick to love. My children show me my biggest weaknesses and help me strengthen them. They encourage me to strive to be the best I can be. They remind me to have faith and to not worry about the things out of my control. They teach me to be thankful for all I have and to focus on what matters.
I never imagined life being so crazy! Everyday brings a little bit of the crazy but I am so grateful for the crazy. I try every day to focus my time on my kids and not on the “pull out your hair” part of being a mother. Before I know it both my kids will be in school, college and one day married.
This Mother’s day I pray that you would have a house full of blessings, rest and you will be pampered with love and appreciation. That your day would be full of a little less stress and a lot more joy! That even in “the crazy” your kids will still make your heart smile! Happy Mother’s Day!!!
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Hello my name is Tiffany. I am a mom to two beautiful children, Landon & Madelyn and a wife to my Prince Charming, David. A few of my favorite things are Disney, the beach, sharpies & post its.
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