Moms Are World Changers
It took just one comment from a four year old that made me go overboard. It made me enter into a new obsession of looking at tall skinny girls that seemed to always look perfect on Instagram. I was already dealing with some insecurities about myself. After having my second child my face began to break out constantly. I never really had this problem, just the minor breakouts and now here I am in my late twenties and I felt like I was back in high school.
I began to pick at myself. First it was my breakouts, then it was stretch marks, my stomach and the list continued. I began playing this comparing game and wished I looked like “her” but then making excuses of why “she” looked a certain way and I didn’t. It was becoming a habit and it wasn’t healthy. It began to eat away at me. It wasn’t just how I looked anymore; I started not to like me. To be honest I didn’t even realize it was happening. I felt miserable and unsatisfied; it was because I was unhappy with myself.
It was one of those long mommy days…you know the days when you smell, have no make up on and pray that not one person comes to your door. Yep, one of those days! I had finally gotten the kids to bed and I was ready to just sit and watch TV. As I was laying in bed getting ready to put the TV on my husband looks at me and says, “You look beautiful.” I just looked at him and rolled my eyes and said, “Yeah, whatever.” Then he said, “You always look beautiful. You’re my girl.” All of sudden something clicked and I thought, “I am his girl.”
It is mind blowing how we can let our insecurities eat at us. It is like we view ourselves as something so insignificant. We are constantly comparing our lows to someone else's highs. I often wonder what would happen if I viewed myself the way my husband Dave views me. I know I am his girl and I know he believes in me. If only I looked in the mirror and saw what he sees.
In Psalms 139:13-14 says, "You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mothers womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous-how well I know it.” (NLT).
I love the NLT version because of the last sentence, “Your workmanship is marvelous-how well I know it.” Too often we never truly find out how marvelous we really are because we are too busy trying to be like someone else. I can’t even begin to imagine what would happen if I truly figured out how marvelous I was. If I looked in the mirror and saw all the delicate, complex parts that God sees. If I truly believed that He knitted me into this special being so that one day I could change a life through a blog that, most times in my eyes, seems pointless and insignificant. If only I totally forgot about my insecurities and let God take all of me for His glory. If only I didn’t let my insecurities stop me from something so much greater…
The next day I opened my bible app to read the verse of the day. It is funny how God works. It was Song of Songs 4:1, “You are beautiful, my darling, beautiful beyond words…” Yes God, I certainly am.
Hello my name is Tiffany. I am a mom to two beautiful children, Landon & Madelyn and a wife to my Prince Charming, David. A few of my favorite things are Disney, the beach, sharpies & post its.